Saturday, August 27, 2011

Endless Journey.....

Do you ever feel that you would like to clear the slate? Just get everything finished, all the loose ends of your life tied up neatly. Just like that? I do, but then when I'm anywhere close, a panic seizes me, something unexpected occurs and shatters me, every day i may make progress, every step may be fruitful yet there is a stretch out there for me which is an ever-lengthiening, ever-ascending and that makes me feel i will never get to the end of the journey. I think of what it would be to have nothing to do in the world. How boring it would be! How terrifying! Although i take joy in little things of daily life but I think I must learn to take joy in the little victories and accomplishments much seriously too while keeping my eyes ever on the next goal. This is challenging.

It's so easy to rest on my laurels. And what does it get me? A closetful of unfinished sketching projects and a notebook of random notes. Nothing new to wear. No blogs worth publishing. Yet, there is more to life than setting goals and meeting deadlines. It's a cliche, but it's still true that life is what happens when you're making other plans. After all, what's a life, anyway ? We're born, we live a little while and we die.

Life is often more interesting than anything you could have dreamed up for yourself untill you dont have habit of woving webs for anyone you like. So my question is, how do you find balance been planning and achieving and just enjoying life as it comes? How do you avoid feeling devastated when your map gets sucked out the window of your car and you decide to just see where the road will take you?

By writing this blog perhaps i am just trying to lift up my life a trifle. But yes i do have words to say..."A bird doesn't sing because it has an answer; it sings because it has a song."