So here I am
Tired and depressed
Thinking of ways
That I can become a success
It's nerve wrecking
Sitting n thinking
Comparing myself with highly paid people
It makes me wonder
If life is still worth living
But then again I should be thankful
For what I have been given
The pressure of being a loner
Is unbearable
But the unemployment rate
Is understandable
I feel like a loser
Sitting here writing this
But I love to write
So that i can feel light
I feel like everyone hates me
And that I am socially rejected
But it doesn't matter
I am as good as dead
I bet you all are reading this
and I bet you all are ready to judge
Be my guest
It doesn't bring me any luck
Sometimes I wonder
Why I was put on this earth
Like what my purpose is here
and why I am feeling so hurt
My life really sucks
And I try to fool myself
Into thinking it doesn't
When in reality
I have nothing
I feel like I am standing in the rain
Crying in pain
Thinking of everybody in vein
I'm similar to
Short term memory
I meet people
But they never remember me
This is not what I want
I need structure
I need to start building my life
Or I will find it hard to survive
I can't continue
staying at home
Relying on people
To give me something
I realize
That I have to get out and get it
I feel like I try so hard
But people only make my life harder
It's like I'll never win
So I light up a circle of candles
And sit in the center
Telling myself
That I can be a winner
I hate the position
That I am in right now
But eventually things will get better
and I won't have to frown
But until then
I'll sit and wait
Until I can get back on my feet
And set everything straight
